2014- Reflection and Gratitude
So many things that I expected to be solid turned out to be very crumbly indeed! So many challenges that required surrender. Some old friends receded, but new friends and new ties with old friends replaced them.
Like a surfer riding this wave of 2014, staying nimble and going with the flow proved the ultimate survival skill. Instrumental in facilitating this nimbleness and fluidity are my spiritual/yoga practice and my family and friends. These are the glue that held me together this year.
In moving back to OC, I ended up moving five times since April. I am grateful to be finally settling into a dear friend’s house in Mission Viejo, someone who has been on his own since age 18, who is a master facilitator of bringing friends together so they coalesce as family. For after all, friends are the family we choose. Thank you Alec M. for this wonderful ability you have to foster community and for all your support.
The job and first house I lived in, upon coming back to OC, were like quicksand. They seemed stable and ethical. Neither turned out to be so. They crumbled quickly when held up to the light.
So, that left me scrambling for housing and income, having to be extra resourceful. This is where surrender becomes so powerful. When we realize how little we actually control, we surrender to the grace of God. And, it’s here that we see who our true friends are. I am eternally grateful to all the friends and family members that helped me this year. When despair and depression tried to creep up when I wasn’t being vigilant, I turned to my spiritual practice and yoga to bring me back into the present. Reading Eckhart Tolle and Ernest Holmes. Listening to the wonderfully-inspiring podcasts of Esther and Jerry Hicks and Dr. Laura DiGiorgio. Teaching yoga, doing yoga, trying to embody the practice of yoga in every cell and fiber of my being. My yoga practice has enhanced my spiritual practice and has made me even more grateful for the opportunity to share yoga with others. It’s been such a pleasure to get to know so many people through the yoga teacher training program and through the classes I’m now teaching.
I am also grateful for all the safety nets and social service agencies that exist to catch us when we fall, to support us in true times of need. Places like neighborhood churches, Goodwill, the Salvation Army, the Jewish Federation. So many agencies helping so many in need. I feel truly blessed.
While riding this wave, I managed to publish my second book and finish writing a musical, that will hopefully be staged someday! Reflecting and writing, whether it’s in my journal, my blogs or my books, is such a creative outlet and stress-buster for me.
My wish for all of you for 2015 is the same as the wish for myself: abundance, prosperity, stability, and continued trust in the Universe to know that all this is manifesting now for each and every one of us. That’s the hard part sometimes- the trust, the faith. Knowing that it will all work out when the daily requirements and expenses of being human keep coming – the rent is due, the car needs a new tire, the house needs new carpeting, etc. After all, we are spiritual beings having a human experience. Reconciling the two is the challenge.
Here’s to a New Year with New Energy! Here’s to a renewal of surrender, nimbleness and fluidity.
And, here’s the song that got me through most of the year, “Closer to Fine,” by the Indigo Girls, with my all-time favorite song lyric: “There’s more than one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line. The less I seek my Source for some definitive, the closer I am to fine.”